When I took wrong path i found the right one[i am in pain]

I am feeling sleepy, and I am drowsy and I am waiting. It has been one of the few decisions that I took out of my own interest and forced by beloved ones. I said I will go by other route. I have got into an express, in and around four o clock in the evening, weather reports were stating that its gonna rain heavily due to cyclone. It was wrong its down pouring due to cyclone and i have never seen such a down pour, its raining like cats and dogs. And it started as soon a s I boarded.

Again same problem persisted being fat I am unable to get adjusted in to the seat and my fellow passenger was slim and he didn’t have any problem sittin with me. That was the silver lining. Now, it starts. The irony is I never get signal in my journey his time I haven’t either, a fellows passenger whose age is around 45-50 is speaking continuously on phone from the time he boarded the bus he neither had a higher end techy phone.

Usually I hate sneaking into others matter so I slept off. Suddenly I woke up, I found my self in a dream falling from a bridge into turbulent river, I woke up and I looked like a person in shock who was hit by thunder. Now, the bus is at railway crossing and gates across crossing are down so, went down to stretch myself now I took a good look at my bus. First three rowed seat is occupied by a family whose daughter who recently gave birth to child and they are not laughing. And the person who was on phone is stil talking I flipped open my phone and checked for signal its not there, he was still getting.

Now, he is talking some logic he thinks that he found a national treasure. Now I felt alone and I was dragged and felt curious to eavesdrop his conversation. He is speaking to his brother and revealing a secret that he found about his daughter. He is coming for Hyderabad where he went for some work, and his daughter doesn’t know that. Her birthday is very near. It seems in two or three days. And he is asking his brother who got a new moto-razor for her birthday to not to give it to her.

Now, the driver honked the horn so I got into bus again and this fellow I still talking and he is agitated. The front seat family is getting g more upset as distance is getting lessened. Actually they are afraid of dropping their daughter along with her child in their In-laws home. I over heard their conversation there is no personal interest of mine.

Their mother in law is making problem it seem the are money minded and they want to get rid of that baby in the initial months of pregnancy itself, as she is an mba degree holder they want her to work and they think motherhood hinders her career growth and their sons career growth too.. so now they are fearing that she may get a divorce.

I don’t understand why they still want to leave her in their in laws home???????????

Now, this fellow again speaks loudly, and from my seat I ca hear his words clearly, its semi-dark twilight time and its drizzling and foggy I opened the window and the lady in next seat to mine scolds me to close window.

Now, I don’t even have freedom to have fresh air. The bus horn came and everybody slept again. This fellow now explaining the same scene to his friend, he is telling that he was walking in ameerpet roads which are empty at night and he saw his daughter with her friends friend who is a boy. Now, he might have went to her and asked her, rather than that he called her and asked “where are you?” then she said that she is in net center, came there to check mails.

Now he called his daughter and didn’t tell her this and started speaking philosophy and he says that he will reveal everything on her birthday, what’s the point in spoiling her birthday and he also states to his friend that one should not send gals for job hunt,. Very sad. What’s wrong in falling in love. If that guy is good what’s the problem? And the conversation went on.

This time my luck is not so good. I didn’t have any gals in my bus. at least I might have chatted not even a person of my age.

We took break for dinner, I slept again as soon as journey started. Suddenly it started raining again, now it is nth time I don’t know which stop it is a person who was angry and had two wives and three children got into bus he looked smart and mine was big bag with less content and around 11 o clock when everybody is sleeping he shouts at me telling to keep my bag aside. I said to him that “ if you want to go cross over it and go” and in telugu I said to conclude [pandaga chesuko annanu].he felt agonized and went of to the seat behind me.

I usually love to watch rain through bus glasses, and I usually sleep off just like that. Suddenly there was a shriek icky voice shouting, to his brother who is some where in the last for water bottle. People in the bus few undisturbed and many were angry when she shouted like that.
Then I noticed that it is suddenly so cool I am unable to bare that, as I said I am sleepy it took time for me to come into conscious ness and check, after sometime I found that somewhere its leaking and drops of water in regular intervals made my hair go wet, and from window it’s a tap god damn luck my whole left leg went wet.
Whenever it rains it’s the same thing, by drivers grace as he always ran out of rain and it hunted down us as regularly as possible.

This is the world and that is how all live, we are on our way to hunt down our aspirations and aims and we bother for smaller things in life, people waiting for express services which are cheaper than comforting hi-tech ones. I always used think that who will travel in such a bus. now truth struck me it is hard and bitter.

I got down in madanapalli the ooty of Andhra Pradesh. It’s a beautiful place no doubt. No site of a bus there, there I sat and red that days paper in that the main article was about youth who got nice pays but bad mental stature and they were desperately in need of counseling, under that area me and my friends come. Who got jobs in software industry really caught in wrong jobs, Spoon fed and were chasing the wild goose, what have we got: mental imbalances, immaturity, recklessness, lack of analyzing a situation, lack of mental peace, tensions, addictions the people who are going to make the future our country beautiful, are suffering caught in wrong jobs by wrong persons, and now frustrated agitated. They don’t know what to do? Clueless. Where are we going? who again raise problems to society? Who are becoming puppets in their parents hands? Who don’t talk when their spouses are problemed by their parents[that young mother]? Who are torchered by their own parents who don’t know their actual character[like that gal]? many are getting unnoticed please scrutinize yourself and get yourself up stop reading about morals and ethics follow them lead your life as an exemplary one. Stand apart.

Now, I am still at the bus stop thinking cool breezes are mixed with small drizzling hittin my face, I having a hot cup of tea. Sippin still nothing changed. I am here and everybody is in their own places, people sleeping in buses, people trying to get a bus, people worried about the materialistic world. Now, I saw the gal who also reading the same article and we exchanged our looks and felt the same feelings in us and felt the urge to do change things…. We stood and we departed, hope it works. I again running and lost tin crowd as she also.