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Can u keep the hunger alive the first question that came to my mind while typing this, I am having the bajji and this thought came across.

The strokes of fingers on the key board are making different regular acoustics telling the pattern of one’s typing. The sound ringing around in the room are occasional mur murs created by mosquitoes and a creepy fan that need to be calmed as there is some ball bearing problem. To get into the silence the fan has been turned off. Now, it’s the only fellow who sat at the type writer and his brain making inaudible illusionary sounds and screams that he can only hear and feel the emotion.

Today is his eighty third birthday in future. He wants to leave some mark as every human wants to leave something back like family, possessions and assets. He had nothing. So he wants to type a document. He doesn’t know what to type and neither he is good at typing. His mind searching for the illusionary pages which he kept for himself. Today he is going to take the first one out into you to make everybody know that he also had something.

He saw a picture of a guy who is in his youthfulness in front of a coll, printed as an adv. His, pages flipped so fast that he went back to the days of that guy age in his life. He was also had the taste of exuberant youth. He never had the problem of money. He was happy go lucky kind of fellow.
The day he was watching Batman Begins, which was the starting off the BATMAN series in 2000 era. He made it pause, and went to attend the call. The phone was from his home. They usually cal to him to talk to him and there is never a topic about him it will be always about how he has to be. He is successful he got his grade sheets filled up and no more space to fill them anymore. His mom called and said that they are happy that one of his cousins is performing well in the same domain where he started off.

His mom is so intelligent that she never puts the point straight, and because of her tackling nature which came to her from her birth she had the ease-ness to drag him into the pool what she wanted and he always started falling off. They never asked him to do what he wanted. If he questions back they will say U r the one who has chosen this domain we didn’t force u. actually they never said they will fund him if he does what he wanted. He still thought that this is not the end once my life starts nobody is going to stop him.

Now, while going to type this he realized that there is nothing called the end of the pursuit. Once u decide what u want u just have to jus start pursuing. U never decides because u fear of not getting funded and your parents fear of not getting successful. And people say that u have to learn from peoples experience so may be we are relying on our parents.

Today the phone call summary is she wants him to pursue something more fancier than what he has done till now and he has fallen for that. If he says NO they will start quarrelling with emotions not with you. He told them that pursuing for the sake of something materialistic and also things like fame, recognition ends you up as you touch the finish line. And u will be young in your life and clue less what else to do as this is not the race u are running for urs sake. This is the race u r participating because ur parent’s image, fame is at stake and u r participating because u r forced to. U might be capable of winning this race but the race ends there.

When u wants something really u start the pursuit and it never ends I bet u. u might have found the crux but that doesn’t end ur run. U keep on improving improving…… they usually say its ur kid as everybody tries to improve their kids at every turn of the race so that they will run the race which only they knew.

He had a friend and she was always attractive funny and has elegance and she always used to worry about her salary. He asked her why. He got shocked with the reply. The answer is she likes a person and to get married her parents are not accepting. To talk to them more emphasizing and with more power now she has switched to this new race of higher salary. And in those times all gals did the same thing. They thought that financial independence gets them everything.

They never thought of freedom or independence as what it is. They don’t know what they are entangled into or from what they are willing to come out. They thought that earning more money gives more power and authority. And it never gave the solution. Every problem has three aspects “UR side”, “Other side” and the “CORRECT ONE”. So while solving the problem they went into a wrong race and now they won and the side they took is their ones and the problem still persists. They never went into correct part of the problem. Because they never tried to solve the problem!!!!!

It’s not the only person doing the same thing everybody does. They never solved the problem they never ran the race they wanted. Because, nobody never knew what they are running for. Money, pleasure, fame, recognition, beauty nothing stays for ever and u are into the race for them u will end upp running the same race like a rat or dog, which lost its mind and felt its life boring and one day it dies doing nothing but making the same path stronger again.

Nobody have to try to stand apart. When they try to be themselves everybody stands apart. “What they are” or “what everybody is” is the difference that makes them stand apart. But, not what change they need to be stand apart is the dumb thing. And they end up following somebody.

He don’t know where he stood at his eighty third birthday. Because, he never took a scale to measure himself or his character or his success. Because, he himself became the reference.
His sweat dripping from his triple chin and the sun setting and now clearly in the dawn he saw himself in himself in the mirror in those rays and he loves it and relaxed into the chair he is sitting and after 10 seconds he stood and went back to sleep in his bed. And the “HE” typing this sheet never ran the race in the same lap and here he started.

And regarding the keeping of HUNGER alive I was speaking at the beginning. Now, I am successful at it now going to make the hunger sleep for some more time.